reading of dreams that i've wished for every night
and being crushed by the chance that they'll never come true
so much happiness expressed by everyone but me
so many things i wish i had the courage to do
love seems to come for men of every shape
but i don't seem to fit any mold
i just wait in hope that there's someone for myself
a hope that's begun to get weaker and old
i keep building myself up for what has happened before
then try to put the pieces of myself back together
tired of being lonely all the time
i'm not sure i could live like this forever
i try so hard to be cheerful and bright
but inside of myself i am falling apart
i guess i can act well because no one knows
no one sees the layers of scars on my heart
i've begun to see myself as a man without place
someone who must fight and dream on his own
someone who is challenged and must overcome
someone who may always be alone
and yet i can't allow myself to think that way
i just have to find someone who cares
i have so many things to say
there is so much that i know i could share
still, this paper is just another dream
a dream i may remember as nothing but a lie
a lie that will and can only cause pain
pain behind my smile, where i silently cry
there is too much in life that i have to achieve
still too many things that i have to do
so to be strong i must believe
that my dreams of love will one day come true
i can not hide inside my emotions
i can not fight within myself
sometimes i feel i'm my own worst enemy
a powerful foe intent on ruining my health
i can not hide my feelings inside
they may turn out to be a curse instead
sometimes the greatest evils
are ones that are never said...