tonight years of forgotten memories will flood back
tonight long lost friends will be ressurected
just in time enough to spread their lies
and i'll be forced to sit quietly and close my eyes to everything
after a long, pampering peace inside my heart and my head
i'll have to remember parts of myself i'd labeled dead
conversation will be very one-sided as i have too much to say
in fact, i may speak for many days
for, once brought back to life, my thoughts of old will linger in my brain
i may be in constant pain for hours to come
all so i might save myself from being undone
i learned long ago that numbers make all the difference
three unskilled, crass persuaders may be more influential
than a harvard diplomat or even the truth
gender makes and impact as well
most won't give a man the time of day
but will listen to what a woman has to say
i have had to read between the lines
i've had to read the small print
what i have to say is only my perspective
because what happened was so intense
i may have feelings that may not be shared
maybe it is because i was singled out
maybe that's why i shout
anyway
you mean enough to me to make the world cry
you mean enough to me to crack the sky
i risk a whole lot in telling you this
tonight you become judge
tonight you are placed in a position of power over me
tonight my old memories lie at your mercy...